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Month 1 Week 1 Day 2!

feeling better already :]

Month 1 week 1 day 1 

I’m excited :)

You’re my motivation…

Every time I get mad, sad, depressed, frustrated, jealous, or any other emotion that is covered up by my fake ass smile. I use that energy and focus on me! I take it out at the gym; put my headphones on plug myself in and just go. I have been thinking lately and all the fucking time that I wasted complaining and bitching about how my life is shit and that I have it bad; could have been turned into something positive, rather I chose to sit and sulk in my own patheticness (not a word but sounds appropriate). I could have been doing things with my life, seeing the world, my surroundings, living, being happy.. Shits going to change and If it doesn’t I guarantee I will lose my fucking head! ugh!! *screams* 

*breath* 

This isn’t about how you make me feel with the shit that upsets me anymore. This is about changing as a person, not because of you but because of me. Holding on to this person that I truly and utterly dislike has taken its toll on my unforeseen lifestyle that I have been patiently waiting for all this time. Whats holding me back is only me, myself, and I. Im changing for the good and for the GREAT! I’m going places and accomplishing things in the one life that I have to live. 

And Im using you as my motivation…